The baby blues have turned out to be post-partum depression. No thoughts of harming the baby, so don't worry; but with everything on my plate and the hormonal emotional roller coaster I am on (due to pregnancy) I feel like I'm drowning. There was a quick 24 hour break up between Josh and I, but last night it seems to have been worked out. Talking, not yelling, does a lot of good, even if he had decided to remain single at least it would have ended on a good note. I like learning how to be in functional relationship and a mom, and I'm happy it's happening with Josh. He's a great person and I'm doing my best to let him know I think so.
Yesterday was also James' one month birthday. We took him to the Broad Ripple park, ate at Qdoba, and just had a fun, relaxed four hours. He was awake for about 2 hours of that adventure, but he slept through the park, rain, and playing on the play ground.
Break through: James has been sleeping 5-6 hours at a time during the night, waking up long enough to eat and get a diaper change, since Saturday Sep 4!!!!!
Weight Update: I've lost 20lbs of baby weight (I gained 50) in the past month :) Soon I'll be working out and hopefully get myself in real, true, honest to goodness shape.
post-partum is no fun I hear. If you feel like you need extra support don't be afraid to find a support group, whether it be in person or on-line. Love ya!
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